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July 17, 2008, 1:55 pm
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I feel stagnate and stale

My potential is drifting away like chunks of ice from a glacier.

My keystrokes increase and my creativity dwindles

I’m lifeless, floating from one task to another

And never discovering my voice.


July 10, 2008, 3:01 pm
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I can’t see because I’m blinded,

By the light, and by the shine.

Can’t see cause I’m reminded,

Of the passion at the time.


The fluffy feathered pillows.

The satin sheet and quilt.

They’re covered in our moisture.

They’re covered in my guilt.

The Chase
July 10, 2008, 2:47 pm
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I smiled at you slightly

–You’re eyes burst into flame.

I managed to hold off a bit, before I spoke your name.

I whispered and you heard me

The recognition– turned to fame.

I’m getting very old you know, too late to play this game.

July 9, 2008, 8:27 pm
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Just a moment to myself

I’m grab it when i can

Just a second for my thoughts

Before the shifting sand.

I thought it would be much easier

To leave you standing still

To gather up my things

And leave you with the bill.

But I found myself regretting

The harshness in my voice

The tone behind my longing

My wisdom, and my choice.

July 9, 2008, 8:20 pm
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My phone doesn’t get answered on Vacation. My emails are unretured. My favorite shows fall by the wayside and the sun finally hits my face. I don’t mind sitting on the deck and doing nothing, listening to the waves while the wind blows my hair around. I don’t comb it, and I don’t care. I’m calm, and happy, and all the things I remember being when I was younger. All the things I wish I still was, but somehow fail to be. I’m not edgy, I don’t yell, and nothing hurts, except maybe the sunburn when I lay down and realize there’s sand on my sheets, but I sleep on them anyway. And in the morning, I stroll, and dance, and laugh with a joviality I’d thought had escaped me years ago. This should be every day.

The Source
May 7, 2008, 11:31 pm
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Why does it eat at me,

Why? Why do I feel the need so badly.

It’s persistent, as if life were about to end,

As if my only contribution could be________.

My only contribution hangs in the balance,

When I think about the pain, the struggles, the misunderstanding,

and undue influence, the mistreatment and sacrifice

That this one thing will carry forever.


Why does it eat at me?

I am a young women, not old, not past her time.

I still have a chance, many opportunities to try,

To become a better woman, mother , friend.

So why does it eat at me. It is not mine,

Not my longing that creates the need to conceive,

But something else.

Something that eats at me, and begs me–

When? When? WHEN?

When will you contribute me?

To start
April 16, 2008, 1:24 am
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Underneath it all

You know I’m just the same

Scared little girl

Taking walks in the rain.

With my light brown hair

And my dark blue eyes

There’s nothing so sacred

As a woman’s disguise.